Lost Girl

Lost Girl

Kim meibos

Today like non other I am at a loss of how I feel or the right words to even say. Usually I'm all about sharing my struggles and trials and how I have overcame them, but today I just dont have it in me to do it.

I have taken a small break from social media because it has been taking up a lot of my time the last few years and believe it or not I actually got a lot done for once.

Ive been doing more yoga, canning peaches and Jalapeno jelly and even did a small Fall craft. but to be honest I have felt an enormous amount of anxiety and a need to do something for myself. Its that time of year when I do a lot of renewal and cleaning out of my emotions because I dont like carrying baggage from one year to the next.

So.....

I have been thinking a lot about friendships, relationships, who I am and goals ect..

I have found that not many people Love me or even have a slight interest in my well-being... I dont care about that though... I have always put out more than I would ever get in return. Thats how most people are though, most dont want to care about people or they care to much and for all the wrong reasons. 

I know I cant get out of this world alive so I have to be able to make the most of it.

Also a huge one is I have learned that not everyone needs to know what I am doing or my likes or dislikes all the time. I have found a better connection from disconnecting and im all the better for it.

I no longer find joy In organized religion and found joy in nature and a better understanding for myself through learning to love myself. I found there is good in all religions and I wont label myself as one specific religion anymore. If I had to choose I would be Ominist. I have my reasons and that isnt for the whole world to know.

I am who I am and I will do what makes me happy.

Im open minded and have a soul very few would understand and I have a very deep connection with only a select few people in my life and I like it that way.

I know that the people that want to be in your life for the better will be the ones who will make an effort to be there in it and vise versa.

Im a coffee drinking

yoga loving

nature walking

star gazing

human with a soul of a hippy flower child and a confused mind about the world.

I care way to much

love to much 

and love music and weird people with heart.

I wanted to take some time to build me up before I can go and help build others up to. I dont like drama, I dont like overly active talkers of negativity because it is draining to listen to. I dont like close minded people that are judgmental either. I find that in my life there are only a few I will had this cool connection with and I dont mind keeping my circle small. 

Remember its ok to be different and Its ok to not be liked by everyone. Not everyone will understand you and not everyone needs to know your story. If I have told you my whole life story and why I am who I am its because I can see a lot in you and enough to share what means a lot to me. True friendship is hard to come by.

Always just remember to be unique! you are special because there is No one else like you!

Namaste

P.s. I will blog more but Itll be a while!