Finding Strength

Written By;

Kimberly Meibos

Today I felt the need to talk about finding strength in difficult times. Being one of many people who have suffered from depression and anxiety on top of a incurable disease I tell you it has been nothing but one of the biggest roller-coasters I've ever been on.

I have had anxiety my whole life since I can remember. I would get awful stomach aches and be terrified of going to school and I felt like the biggest outcast. I grew out of the stomach aches after a year but I tell you It wasnt ever easy when you have a mess of a life.

Being a kid that got bullied in elementary wasnt easy either, man nothing is easy not even our very own trials but what do you do to get through it?

For me when I got sick I had to really find ways to make me feel better. If that meant finding a hobby or just taking a walk to enjoy nature to make me feel a little better I made sure to do it. We all have struggles and go through hardships but its what we learn and how we get through it that matters.

I have cried countless times, ask many many people for advise and looked for ways to heal out of the normal western ways because I wanted to have a good life. I strive every single day to make sure I can function like a normal person, and to be able to be strong enough for my children because If I'm down then they are down and its not fair to them to have to suffer with me.

the one thing that gets me through my hard times is my husband.
he makes me laugh and makes sure I laugh at least once or twice during the day. laughter is so good for the brain.
I also try to find things less stressful like my garden or taking a hot epsom salt bath.
I turn to God for help and understanding. I also look for ways to help others anyway that I can. Its a rewarding feeling being able to put a smile on someone elses face.

remember that you arent alone. when we are going through something hard we get stuck thinking how bad it is and really we need the reminder that we arent the only ones that are going through trials. its sucks to think there are more people like me but at the same time we learn to lean on each other for support and help. what works for some might just work for others so we have to help each other out. Be positive, have faith and hope for a better day, and find positive affirmations to say out loud every day. Never give up even when you feel like you are alone and even when you feel like no one cares because There is always someone. You are ok to reach out and ask for help.
There is help and dont give up.

There have been many times when I have sat and wondered what I was going to do if I got sicker and then I had to realize I'am very fortunate to be here and have been able to have my life, family, friends and good and bad experiences because I have learned so much. I wouldnt trade my life for anything because I love my family. We cant escape what we are meant to go through so we must learn from it and move forward.

Keep your head up and keep moving forward. find what makes you happy and do that! Look outside the box.

If you find spirituality or you find something you are good at and it makes you happy, find a way to do that often. You are important in this life and you deserve to be happy.

Have a good night.
love Kim