Autoimmune diseases aren't real....
written by
Kim Meibos
Ok... I know what you're thinking.. What is this girl talking about ?? right?!!
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So you all know I'm Sick... wohooo... nothing new right? we all know that. well tonight im going to share with you something you all don't know. Why? because I'm not alone.
So why the header? why say that autoimmune disease arent real? I didnt say it but many people have to me.
UGH.... Seriously erks me.
so like many people that suffer we dont always have to hurt in one specific spot. sometimes its several spots and maybe they all dont get relief the same way. like for instance my back pain (picture below) Tylenol and ibuprofen doesnt touch, it doesnt look to bad but my L5 is pinching some nerves. I have Illeitis ( Inflammation of the small bowel) also treated with only Toradol. If I dont catch it in time I end up in the hospital.
I have done EVERYTHING I could to help my body from pills, essential oils, cbd oil, crystals, energy work, acupuncture, chiropractic care, diet, supplements, to gratitude and I still suffer every day.
Today I seen a new chiropractor because I fell in January and my lower back has been on fire since.
I'm very sore from that adjustment and been doing ice on and off today.
I'm very sore from that adjustment and been doing ice on and off today.
I have become numb. numb to the pain some days and also numb to the truth. I have to fake everything I do and it is exhausting.
I fake a smile, I put make up on every day even when I dont want to because the scarring on my face is to embarrassing and I dont want people to stare at me. I smile because I am not rude and dont want to come off as rude even when I really shut the door and cry most days.
The reason I typed that autoimmune diseases arent real is because several times through the years I have been told I look fine, you dont look sick, why arent you in bed then, or flat out that its not real and I'm faking it. Man when I hear this I want to come unglued on some people. It happened the other day, We were asked why I see so many drs, I look Fine and just looking for attention. I sometimes cry when people say that because they have no idea the emotion and physical strength it takes to hold myself together and not climb in a hole and cry.
Some times I will even whip out my meds bag and be like REALLLLLLY??? do you think I want to take this crap??? hell to the NO but I have no choice... This below is just a small portion of what I take. including my Potassium because I cant keep the levels right in my body FYI potassium deficiency isnt common and is a pretty rare thing to happen in young people my age.
So yes autoimmune disease are so real, some you cant physically see and some you can. when you cant see it please dont think its not real.
Now for some good news
I do have some good news though for my readers besides always complaining about how I feel. I finally started school.. how am I doing it? I dont know but I feel so happy when I'm there I for a few hours forget I hurt. Im going to be a CNA. I have always loved working with people and being a caregiver so I chose to go and do something with myself besides be depressed and sad in my house. I get to go out and do service. I love working and being around older people. They need love just like you and I do. I have also had a very good interest in the medical field since I was really young and I know somethings very well. I have waited ten years to go to school and I'm super ecstatic about it. Its familiar territory for me and So far I'm doing really good. I have four weeks left till I get my certificate yay!!!
I cant give up HOPE... I hope none of you suffering do either. Its hard to keep going some days I understand it all to well but just know there are still so many good things to get out of this life still if you open your heart and mind and seek the things that make you happy.
Also on a side note keep me in your thoughts and prayers. Im being tested for kidney cancer, kidney disease along with Lupus since it runs in the family. Im not to worried because even with answers there isnt a cure either way and I will NOT do chemo therapy. Dont think im selfish that is something my husband and I have discussed.
also for others please read "The Spoon Theory" to better understand someone who suffers.
To make donations to help me with medical expenses I would be forever grateful. I hope that one day I can return the favor after school by passing on the good deeds to those I will be around every day. thank you My health Blog.
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